gue fikir kita dah sama-sama dewasa, but then again gue bisa aja salah kan?

gue juga menyadari terkadang gue bisa menjadi orang yang menyebalkan dan nggak sensitif, but i praised u for alwaya being a reminder for my wrongs. tapi apakah hal itu hanya berlaku saat gue melakukan kesalah ke orang lain, tapi berhenti berfungsi disaat lo rasa gue melakukan kesalahan justru sama lo?

kita mungkin memang nggak sedekat dulu, since they moved ur desk further, joining ur crowd.tapi gue fikir hal itu nggak bakal jadi masalah, kita bakal tetap jadi teman baik, tapi sepertinya lagi-lagi gue salah.

lo selalu jadi orang yang bisa gue andalkan saat gue butuh honest opinion, about anything, bahkan walaupun gue tau kalau kita berdua itu memang orang yang beda, tapi mungkin justru orang kayak lo, yang sama sekali nggak kayak gue, yang gue butuhin.

jadi...
sebagai orang yang selalu jujur, bukankah harusnya u spit it on my face ya saat lo rasa gue salah, bukannya turn ur back n walk away, pretending to be deaf when i called u.
i wish i could say, just go then..but, apparently i really love it being ur friend.

sadly, i know i'll never have the guts to tell this all to u.

so long then...

Siapa yang lagi gue coba bodohi sih? menipu diri sendiri, dan jadinya menipu orang-orang lain yang peduli. buat apa? belum pasti juga, dan sejauh ini yang diperjuangkan itu malah lebih banyak bikin sakit hati.

ternyata rasa insecurity itu bisa jadi mesin penghancur yang sangat mematikan ya.dan selama rasa insecure itu masih ada, semua masalah lain nggak bakal bisa terselesaikan, wong akarnya aja belum kecabut.

kayak lagi menghitung detik2 terakhir, mau sampe selama apa pun pura2 semuanya baik2 aja, toh akhirnya tetep harus menerima kenyataan kalau semua itu adalah suatu kesalahan, dan harus dihentikan.

kayak orang susah deh, kenapa harus berpikir udah mentok sih?masih muda gitu, waktu masih panjang, pilihan masih banyak, lebih baik live the life to the fullest. ya ga??

ah tai...!

I was in love with you
And gave my heart to you
I did my best to keep you satisfied
You took the love from me
And used it selfishly
You did not give back your
Love to me at all

I gave the sun to you
You said it was too bright
I gave you diamond rings
You said they didn't shine
I gave my world to you
But you said it's not enough
What in the world could I have done
To make you be so rough

'Til you do me right
I don't even want to talk to you
I don't even want to hear you speak my name
'Til you do me right
Only wrong is gonna come to you
Nothin' good is gonna come 'til you change
Change your ways
Until you change your evil ways

Girl I was there for you
Someone you could talk to
How could you just keep breakin' my heart
What did I do to you
To make you be so cruel
I don't understand why you've been so wrong

I tried to be your strength
You said I was too strong
I tried to compromise so
We could get along
I gave my love to you despite
Your evil ways
I guess it's clear to me there's only
One thing left to say

[Chorus]

There's a time when you know what you
Feel inside your heart
It's tellin' you that somethin' feels strange
You don't have to deny it
All you gotta do is just try it
You'll find our love grows
Stronger if you're willing to change

harusnya menurut kalian lagu itu dari siapa buat siapa?
sayangnya lagu itu ditujukan buat gue, seorang cewek yang dianggap sangat evil karena nggak bisa menghargai segala daya upaya yang dah dilakuin sang cowok buat gue.

yea rite...as if...!!
nand calls it, reverse psychology, and she's rite.

ada satu kata yang sangat2 salah ada di lagu itu, dan nggak pernah ada di hubungan gue, at least nggak dari kedua belah pihak. COMPROMISE.

how dare he?!