Balii???

am i being too selfish,i mean it just for two nights.
shit! i am so upset i don't know what to write.
i really want to go there, after the plan that got cancel, and now i finally got the chance.

i was so happy i feel like hitting the roof, but now, the gravity's pulling me so strong i can't even jump.
ah, shit!

i deserve this! after everything that happened in my life i deserve a little vacation right?? and this is not even a vacation, i still got some reporting to do. why can't they just let me go happily, without the sighing and whining.
it's not like i ask them to take care of Eijaz for the rest of his life, it just for freaking two days, on the weekend. when they are so many people in that stupid house. and i only ask them to look after Eijaz on the night. oh, why can they just do it??

ah shit, maybe i am the selfish one.
like always.
shit.